back to december

i'm so glad you made time to see me
how is life,tell me how is your family
i haven't see them in a while

you have been good busier then ever
we small talk,walk and the weather
your guard is up and i know why

because the last time
you saw me is still burned in the back of your mine
you gave me roses
and left there to die

so this is me swallowing my pride
standing in front of you saying i'm sorry for that night
and i go back to december all the time

its turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
wishing i'd realize what i had when you were mine

i go back to december
turn arround and make it alright
i go back to december all the time

 these day i have been sleeping
staying  up playing back myself leaving
when your birthday passed i didn't call

then i think about summer all the beautiful time
i watched you laughing from the passenger side
and reealize i love you in the fall

and then the cold came
the dark days when fear crept into my mind
you gave me all your love
and all i gave you was goodbye

i miss your tan skin
your sweet small
so good to me so right

and how you held me in your arms that september night
the first time you ever saw me cry

maybe this is wishfull  thinking
probably mindless dreaming

 but if we loved again
i swear i would love you right

i'd go back on time and
change but i can't

but if the chance is
on you door i understand